Just Trying To Get Through This

Anyone else been flailing around in a storm of overwhelm?

For me, it began with a stomach bug on our way home from a big family trip abroad.

Then my husband Micah caught it.

Our kids started school four days later, with no school supplies because we’d had no time to buy them.

Afterschool activities, backlogged appointments, and unpaid bills immediately clogged the calendar.

Jet lag still plagued me, weeks after our return. 

I’ve been doubting my decision to try life without caffeine as I dragged through the days, while also contending with erratic perimenopausal hormones and autoimmune fatigue.

Friends are grappling with hard diagnoses.

Micah returned to work and learned that a family in his community lost their young son.

Stories of heartbreak continue unfolding: genocide and gun violence in the news, deportation and eviction in our community.

Everything’s been a struggle–getting out of bed, helping the kids get ready for school, completing basic work tasks, making meals, just showing up day after day.

I keep asking myself:

How will I get through this?